"I kinda have mixed feelings about that," I explained in this strangely acceptable non-explanatory phrase.

One of my residents pointed out: "You have mixed feelings on a lot of things."

I'm not exactly sure what I think about that, but, as an RA, I respect his opinion. 

I'm ready to graduate, ready to move on, and yet I'd be happy here. I'm content in a lot of places, but discontent -- or disconnected? -- just enough to be OK with change. Extreme change.

Is it the adventure that draws me? 

The exploring of new places and new things?

The escape from the old? Getting rid of the familiar?

Do I get some thrill from reinvention? Test-driving myself in a new place, checking out how I function in new environments? Right now, I'm feeling like this is the best explanation. 

Like I said, I'm not completely certain what I think about a lot of things. I'm noncommittal when it comes to judging or deciding, even things about myself. I've seen too many inconsistencies to commit to one interpretation of anything, but, you know... I don't know.